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Tuesday, August 10th, 2004
2:04 am	~Untitled~ I see your body I see your mind I see your soul Your face brings light Shafts of brilliance so bright As to make the wings of angels look shody Your intellect melts me Your prose sets me free So wonderful, I am almost left blind Your spirit is so warm So magnificent in it's form That upon it's sight, I cannot help but feel whole I envy your body For it is undoubtably Nearest to you of all things I envy your mind For it is inevitably Untamable, but without fleeing I envy your soul For it is intrinsically Beautiful, in it's feeling I would hold your body I would cherish your mind I would marvel at your soul If I had but the courage To make you see and understand That I could be your knight If ever there was a need at hand Current Music: Seal - Lost My Faith (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 3rd, 2004
8:11 am	Your soul is STEADFAST. You are a fiercely loyal person who would never cross a loved one. People always know they can rely on you and your dependability is well-known. You're probably a little on the quiet side, but your faithfulness is never doubted, and you always back up your kith and kin whether they want or need it or not. You are a dependable and trusted soul. What Is Your Soul's Trait? brought to you by Quizilla Current Music: none so far (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 27th, 2004
9:52 am	To all people who would like to be able to choose their lockers before anyone else. August 4th from 9 to 12 there is a registration packet-filling-party-thing, if you'll remember the packets you got in the mail for registration (they came way before school started) that's what you'll be doing at this packet-filling-thing: stuffing all of those papers into the packets. It's not hard work at all, and the more people you get to come the faster it goes. Know this, if you come, you are automatically given the chance to pick your locker weeks before anyone else(regardless of whether you're underclassmen or not), and they will feed you pizza too. Leave comments or call me (303)579-4134 p.s. This only applies to BHS kids ^.~ Current Music: Ace Of Base - Edge Of Heaven (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, July 15th, 2004
10:01 pm	I sit, I be bored. Ironically I sit and I think about how half of my "friends" don't even know me anymore. Summer seems to be one of those "tests of true-friendship", that whole trial by time deal. I should also like to mention how frightful a thing it is to realize just how much attention I pour into the wrong people. I exhaust myself showing attentions and affections to certain people that show absolutely no gratitude, and no regret in shirking me. I regret to say that I have been slacking off on the people I should be hanging out with, that I like to hang out with, and that seem to like hanging out with me (rather than those who make no effort to converse with me in groups, or those who never return my calls). I find myself waging one-sided conversations with people I wish I wouldn't, it's really sad how few people actually like a good conversation online. No one sparks one, so I never get the oppurtunity to engage them, and somehow I've lost the desire to start them myself, as half of the time I am sure the other person isn't paying attention, and the other half, I am sure the other person would not make much of the conversation. I really do enjoy a good conversation, I don't mind a "jumpy" one, so long as we're both talking about the same thing, and even more so, so long as we're both actually conversing instead of "mm-hm, yeah, yep, oh sure, yeah i know"-ing. I also have to say that although it is quite fun to be entertained, and to do some entertaining, I feel that to be in someones company alone should be entertainment enough. I don't need to be entertained all the time, I don't mind just sitting and hanging out, or talking, or listening to music with people. And I must say it bothers me to be required to entertain company continuously, if I am quite so boring that one cannot just enjoy my company as it is, then I'm not worth much to you as a person. I love to be entertained, and I love to entertain, but to need to do so for every moment that I am being with a friend is less like hanging out with a friend, and more entertaining a guest, it is also quite exhaustive as well. Anyways. Call me someone, this is all stemmed from a lack of conversation since forever ago: 303-579-4134 Current Music: Linkin Park-In The End/Hammerfall-At The End Of The Rainbow (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, June 21st, 2004
6:51 pm	Your True Nature by llScorpiusll Username The quality that most appeals to you: Empathy In a survival situation, you: Run like hell Your hidden talent is: A beautiful mind Your gift is: Genius In groups, you: Perfer to act as security Your best quality is: Your compassion Your weakness is: Your overbearing nature Created with the ORIGINAL MemeGen! Generate your Anime Style by Jena-su Name: Hair: Rediculously long, usualy tied up in ribbons. Clothes: Long, super cool trenchcoats. Powers: Psychic powers Special Features: Wolf ears and tail Sidekick: Your best friend. Attitude: Cheerful, but calm. The voice of reason. Weapon: Squeeky Hammer Created with the ORIGINAL MemeGen! Current Music: MY guitar (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 15th, 2004
6:57 pm	Yay! My Birthday! Tomorrow! Yeah so, in about 7 hours and 50 minutes I'll be 17...R rated movies here I come haha. Meaning tomorrow is my birthday. Which is cool, but would be more so if I was actually going to do something, however I'll have to wait till later. Now, I wanna know of the people that read this who'd wanna come to a movie with me as celebration. If you read this, reply if you wanna come, or let me know otherwise. Current Music: Deep Purple - Smoke On The Water, Soil - Breaking Me Down (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, June 7th, 2004
10:05 pm	who pays attention and what do they say...? 1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. 2. Am I lovable? 3. How long have you known me? 4. When and how did we first meet? 5. What was your first impression? 6. Do you still think that way about me now? 7. What do you think my weakness is? 8. Do you think I'll get married? 9. What makes me happy? 10. What makes me sad? 11. What reminds you of me? 12. If you could give me anything what would it be? 13. How well do you know me? 14. When's the last time you saw me? 15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? 16. Do you think I could kill someone? 17. Describe me in one word. 18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/ weaker/ or staying the same? 19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen? 20. Would you ever want to kiss me? 21. Have you ever wanted to ask me out? 22. Are you going to put this on your LJ and see what I say about you? Current Music: NIN and Static-X - Closer (trance remix) (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 19th, 2004
5:04 pm	I might as well be dead... Cattell's 16 Factor Test Results Warmth |||||||||||||||||| 58% Intellect ||||||||||||||||||||| 66% Emotional Stability |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 82% Aggressiveness ||||||||||||||||||||| 70% Liveliness ||||||||| 30% Dutifulness |||||||||||||||||| 54% Social Assertiveness ||||||||||||||||||||| 70% Sensitivity |||||||||||||||||| 58% Paranoia |||||||||||| 34% Abstractness |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74% Introversion ||||||||||||||| 42% Anxiety ||||||||||||||| 42% Openmindedness ||||||||||||||||||||| 62% Independence |||||||||||||||||| 58% Perfectionism ||||||||||||||| 50% Tension ||||||||| 26% Take Free 16pf based Personality Test personality tests by similarminds.com Look at the liveliness people...I might as well be DEAD, and man, I just keep getting dumber! And by the way, I'm not a very warm person obviously, so don't try to talk to me. rargh **ferocious, not-warm looking** (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, May 17th, 2004
10:34 pm	You're a Crusader By focusing on what others need, you learn the exact value and potential of each person in different situations. You instinctively know how motivated others are in supporting you. This helps you surround yourself with the right people. The passionate you believes in yourself and others. You actively listen and give diplomatic feedback. With astonishing empathy, you see others' dreams. Magically, your strong belief makes wishes come true. The centered you envisions a realizable future. Ideas and details do not overwhelm you. They become your building blocks. When all is quiet within, you see how you are progressing toward your goals. The emotional you pulls things together. You bring up points that allow others to fit in. First, though, try to consider where you belong. The sense of being left out will then melt away. So yeah, that's cool...I wouldn't want to try and comment as to whether or not it's true...that seems kind of...cocky...to me **shrug** Current Music: Hoobastank - The Reason (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 16th, 2004
6:01 pm	whoa... Disorder Rating Paranoid: Low Schizoid: Low Schizotypal: Low Antisocial: Low Borderline: Low Histrionic: Low Narcissistic: Low Avoidant: Low Dependent: Low Obsessive-Compulsive: Low -- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! -- Current Music: P.O.D. - Thinking About Forever (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 15th, 2004
11:10 pm	alright, this is fucking awesome, but beware, do not take seriously, or i'll sex you to death... Your Homocidal Rampage! by crash_and_burn Your name: Weapon of Choice: Sex Your Favorite Target: Goths Your Kill Count: 912,190,406 Your Battle Cry: "My kidneys tingle with pleasure!" Years You Spend in Jail: 27 How Much Money In Damages You Cause: $31,841,989,203,725 Your Homocidal Insanity Level:: 98% Created with the ORIGINAL MemeGen! Current Music: Jethro Tull - Locomotive Breath (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, May 14th, 2004
3:50 pm	Cattell's 16 Factor Test Results Warmth |||||||||||||||||| 58% Intellect ||||||||||||||||||||| 70% Emotional Stability |||||||||||||||||||||||| 78% Aggressiveness ||||||||||||||||||||| 66% Liveliness |||||||||||| 34% Dutifulness |||||||||||||||||| 58% Social Assertiveness ||||||||||||||||||||| 70% Sensitivity |||||||||||||||||| 58% Paranoia |||||||||||| 38% Abstractness ||||||||||||||||||||| 62% Introversion ||||||||||||||| 46% Anxiety ||||||||||||||| 46% Openmindedness |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74% Independence ||||||||||||||||||||| 62% Perfectionism ||||||||||||||| 50% Tension |||||||||||| 34% Take Free 16pf based Personality Test personality tests by similarminds.com just an update on that one (god I need to stop taking quizzes!), checkin' out how much i've changed But hey, it's all good, it's my day off ^.~ Current Music: 5 For Fighting - Out Of Love (2 Comments |Comment on this)
3:24 pm	The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to the First Level of Hell - Limbo! Here is how you matched up against all the levels: Level Score Purgatory (Repenting Believers) Low Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers) Very High Level 2 (Lustful) Low Level 3 (Gluttonous) Moderate Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious) Very Low Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy) Low Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics) Low Level 7 (Violent) Low Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers) Moderate Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous) Low Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test Ok that rocks Current Music: 5 For Fighting - Superman (Comment on this)
11:13 am	you are lavender #E6E6FA Your dominant hue is blue, making you a good friend who people love and trust. You're good in social situations and want to fit in. Just be careful not to compromise who you are to make them happy. Your saturation level is very low - you have better things to do than jump headfirst into every little project. You make sure your actions are going to really accomplish something before you start because you hate wasting energy making everyone else think you're working. Your outlook on life is bright. You see good things in situations where others may not be able to, and it frustrates you to see them get down on everything. the spacefem.com html color quiz cool, all I've got to say (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 20th, 2004
6:52 pm	ok, on a completely DIFFERENT note than my LAST post **cough** You're addicted to..... Nothing! Your addicted to nothing at all? Well..... ok I guess thats a good thing but come on just think of the possibilities! What are you addicted to? (pics!) brought to you by Quizilla which is awesome Current Mood: ugh Current Music: Limp Bizkit - Behind Blue Eyes (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 18th, 2004
3:38 pm	Subject: remember how special you really are!!! By the time God made woman, he was into the second week of working overtime. An angel appeared and said, "Why are you spending so much time on this one?" And the God answered, "Have you seen My spec sheet on her? She has to be able to run on diet Pepsi, leftovers, have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart. She heals herself when she is sick AND can work 18 hour days." The angel then noticed something, and reaching out, touched the woman's cheek. "Oops, it looks like you have a leak in this model," the angel said. "I think you're trying to put too much into this one." "That's not a leak," the God corrected, "that's a tear. The tear is her way of expressing her joy, her sorrow, her pain, her disappointment, her love, her loneliness, her grief and her pride." "Woman is truly amazing. And she is! Women have strengths that amaze men . They bear hardships and they carry burdens, but they hold happiness, love and joy. They smile when they want to scream. They sing when they want to cry. They cry when they are happy and laugh when they are nervous. They fight for what they believe in. They stand up to injustice. They don't take 'no' for an answer when they believe there is a better solution. They go without so others can have. They go to the doctor with a frightened friend. They love unconditionally. They cry when their children excel and cheer when their friends get awards. They are happy when they hear about a birth or a wedding. Their hearts break when a friend dies. They grieve at the loss of a family member, yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left. "They know that a hug and a kiss can help to heal a broken heart. Women come in all sizes, in all colors and shapes. They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you to show how much they care about you. The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning! They bring joy and hope. They have compassion and ideals. They give moral support to their family and friends. Women have vital things to say and everything to give. "Are there no flaws?" the angel said. "Of course, because nothing can be perfect, each woman will have her unique flaws. But there's one they all have in common. I've tried to get it out of the model, but not even I can seem to fix it." "What's that?" "They all tend to forget their worth." You know what I have to say to that? I say you're damn straight...a woman is the saving grace of the planet earth, and they can't even see it sometimes... So I say, hell yes (8 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 13th, 2004
5:58 pm	You are a silver dragon. The rarest kind of dragon. YOu are noble yet avoid humans as much as possible. You are the guardian of the defensless and you rule the skies. Which Dragon resides in your soul? (cool pictures!) brought to you by Quizilla what an interesting quiz... (Comment on this)
Monday, April 12th, 2004
3:01 am	mmm...things i have discovered today...: ~crushes can be easily quelled and squared away (not new) ~pear flavored jelly beans are the shit ~life's only crappy when you're not looking at it right (not new) ~mango flavored jelly beans are also the shit ~rubber flavored jelly beans are not the shit ~Cadbury eggs are good for sensually provocative play (whoa) ~life ain't so bad Current Music: Cold - Black Sunday (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 7th, 2004
9:47 pm	Claymore, power and strength rule your fighting, these swords were only used by the non faint of heart and were weilded by the most fierce warriors. (Please Vote) What sword would you use (info and pics on swords as well) brought to you by Quizilla You are a black dragon! Master of the shadows and nightmares. People claim you to be evil but you're just misunderstood. You just want to be alone. Which Dragon resides in your soul? (cool pictures!) brought to you by Quizilla You are a forest shadow. Your essence is that of the tree or beast that casts you upon the earth. You feel a purpose to be in balance with the cycles of life and are wise and beautiful in your submission to the justice of Mother Nature. You are peaceful in temperament and, though you feel small, your spirit is precious, strong, and mighty as the (green)forces with which it is affiliated. (please rate my quiz cuz it took me for freaking ever to create) Heavy metal! You rock! It's mostly about the music instead of lyrics for you...but you channel most of the emotion through the lyrics! Mosh pit for you! Just be careful you don't give yourself a concussion with so much headbanging... What genre of rock are you? brought to you by Quizilla (yessir, you're damn straight) You are an Elementalist. Your magic stems from the forces of nature. You might be a forest nuturing Druid, a storm-creating Weather-Wizard or any of the many Elementals, but one thing is sure-- your bond with nature is strong. You can rely heavily on nature to support yourself aesthetically or physically for it lends you both comfort and strength. Your instincts rarely fail you. You are vibrantly passionate but are sometimes carried away by your own emotions. Which Magical Order Are You In? brought to you by Quizilla You are a Mentalist. Your magic depends on strength of will. You could be a memory-reading Mind- Mage, a lethally telekentic Force-Wizard, or a helpful Transmage for your abilities are a result of sheer stubborn will and intensely keen intellect. Your mind has been honed by learning and practice into the perfect tool for examining and dissecting reality and altering it to suit your needs. You are intelligent and scholarly with a tendency to distance yourself from others. Which Magical Order Are You In? brought to you by Quizilla (I dunno, suspending disbelief, I could be either or both **shrug**) (Comment on this)
Friday, April 2nd, 2004
10:11 pm	The sky split in half With a tremendous sound The ground shook Out from the crack peered an Eye An Eye great and terrible At me it glared fiercely In an instant it had come and gone One moment an eye, infinately gigantic The next a lid woefully sealed Then a flash...A broken scream A water drop shakes the earth As golden shoots pierce bodies and concrete Silent wind flees from a closed doorway Silently blasting fire flies outwards Sand turns to glass, and flesh to dust The minor fall, the major lift Scores of faces bow to the emptiness A symphony of anguished cries The conductor bows The Eye ceases to see All in an instant, and no more (3 Comments |Comment on this)